Saturday, September 02, 2006

Wrecklessness Withdrawal Syndrome.

My life has gone from party-hearty to BOOOOORRRRIIINNNGGGG.

For example, this is how my weekend has progressed:
Friday night: Started writing the notes for class. Made a necklace. Went to bed.
Saturday: Woke up at 9:30. Ate breakfast. Went to pick up a box sent from mom and dad. Talked on the phone a bit. Finished notes for class. Ate lunch. Filled out two medical school applications. Chatted online. Sat here in my apartment, with the windows open, listening to people yelling at a house party nearby. Realized there was something really odd about this picture....

I should be at some house party, partying it up! But I'm not.

It's Saturday night, and I'm home. I was home all day. That was unheard of in Miami. It's okay, this is my new life. Study hard. Study on the weekends. Study study study. It's a huge change, but I can handle it. I was built with a study hard engine, I just never went past "cram before test" mode.

What's not so cool: I'm thinking, this is only the beginning. After this, if all works out, I'll be in medical school. Medical school, that aint no joke. How much "free time" will I have? How much studying will I do? Then comes residency, roughly 100 hours a week of work. Then my career and marriage and children and wrinkles and menopause and osteoperosis and.............

Okay, the point is, will I ever party like a rockstar again? I mean, I know people outgrow that stuff, but, I didn't! Or did I? I didn't even notice!!!!

The medical school students at UM (go canes!) that I know actually party a lot. But, will I go to UM? If so, there is no guarantee that my classmates will be into partying.

Why am I so worried? This is just a side effect. My body and mind are getting used to the whole being responsible thing. It's like a drug withdrawal. I was addicted to irresponsibility. I'm seeing a baby crawling on the ceiling and everything.

4 comments:

* said...

ok..being it medschool goes like this.

before test: you forget about friends, family , life, study study study study, you start noticing weird books in library, study study study....

after test: you drink up a storm and dance the night away...!!!

next day (after handover) you start all over again....

aarrgghhh! Like a friend of mine says...I love medicine I just dont like the process of "getting there"! my first big test is tomorrow...I feel that I dont know a thing! Im trying not to freak out...

ajbendaƱa said...

whats a handover? is it perverted cause it sounds like it. haha i dont have test anymore. Thats gona come back to bite me in the ass, i can feel it.

Marianita said...

you're a dummy. I think she meant "hangover"

ajbendaƱa said...

NO SHIT SHERLOCKA